Hi mum,
I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much. You have always been there for me through thick and thin, you have cried with me, laughed with me, and have always been the pillar of strength and the only one person in this world who has always been there for me since I came to this world.
How wonderful was the day when I started calling you “ammi ji”, I kind of remember a little when I was young and used to run off to school saying “i have to go I have to go teacher is gonna be asking me to recite the timetable” and you used to be “eat something before you go, hurry up” and hmm when on my way back home I used to throw my schoolbag on the bed, wouldn’t take off my clothes until I was done with my homework and you used to say “No no wakas first you have to eat then do your homework”. Always caring and praying for my health.
I remember whenever I used to fall ill you wouldn’t sleep, you would stay awake holding me near you and to tell you the truth I feel blessed that I was ill because then I got the chance to be near you. The comfort and the love you showered me with through each step of the way has given me a totally different outlook to this world. The caring nature you have towards even those that used to be cruel as there always are those types of people in a family. That was a never ending lesson for me watching you be so honest and mature in every situation.
You remember once you and grandma took me to school on my first day in Lahore? And little did you both know that I followed you back through the shopping center and hid myself everytime you two looked back thinking you saw me. I heard you say to grandma again and again “Don’t know how wakas is doing, hope he is ok” Looking back at it I see nothing other than pure love and care for that one person you brought into this world. And when you saw me there was no sign of anger on your face, but you just hugged me and said “ohh what you doing here” hmmm I wish I was 7 again just to see you smiling and walking as if everything is ok.
You remember when we came to Norway and after a few years I got my first brother after 10 years. I was over the moon when grandma said “wakas wakas wake up you got a brother” I jumped up from the bed and fell down and ran towards the door and realized that she meant he is in the hospital. I dressed up quickly and waited so badly that dad would drive us all to see the bundle of joy. My little brother who I will play with from now on. I was so happy. I saw you there in the hospital with the cute baby and just hugged him so tight. I miss that hmm
Do you remember the day when we all moved back to Pakistan because I said i can’t live in Norway I want to be in Pakistan. I went back with Grandma who was always there for me too. But there was something missing there you know. You weren’t there, as much as you wanted to. Then I came back again and saw my other brothers, tiny and so cute. Time wasn’t so kind to grandma (dad’s mum) and she passed away and yes I am always going to miss her.
We moved back to Pakistan, remember? And then during that time first month there from Norway we were robbed of almost everything we had when the guys who broke in to our house put a gun on my head and started counting to 10. I could sense his shaking hand on my back as if it was his first time, but that hand going towards my head with his gun was more than enough for you to get up and give them whatever possessions they asked for from the house. The fear I saw in your eyes that day was more than enough for me to also not do anything as it could have made matters worse for the little brothers and the baby sister who was lying there crying wondering what these guys are screaming for. That hellish day I realized life is so unpredictable and how you handled it made me respect you even more and more.
Then I said I am going to Norway and you kind of in your own silent way nodded and said ok. While I know deep inside you broke to pieces seeing your eldest son leave for another country with dad while brothers and sisters were with you although you came back to Norway after a few months. Then from there I moved to London to start working, yet again I wasn’t there but my short visits back and forth to see you guys were something I made sure I did.
You are my strength in moments of pain and that person in this world who unconditionally prays for my well being and success through each phase of my life. You have given me the reason to smile and the reason to feel that nothing is impossible when one puts their mind to it. You saw me when I failed, and you were right there when I succeeded. You were there when i tried and you were there when I used to just lay down thinking life is finished while it only had just begun.
But what have I done for you as a son? Is there anything I can do to give you back what you have given me? Is there anything I can do that can repay the amount of hours you have put in to take care of me and all the family since i came into this world? What can I do that shows you that without you my life is going to be just a word. For some unfortunate people having a mother and not caring for them is their lifestyle, but for me the values you injected in me make sure that everytime you need me I am there for you.
Now we got a huge house so all brothers and sisters get a room of their own. You wanted that right, although you were happy before too I am sure you are happy inside that we made it very well through the phases of life. And you still take care of us, still to this date not a single day you don’t worry about me if I haven’t eaten properly. And I feel so blessed to call you when I am coming home from work everyday just so you know that you mean the world to me and I want you to feel you deserve to know everything that goes on, I am sure you like to know where I am right 
So mum that day when you said you feel bad that I had to take vacation from work and use it all on driving you to the hospital for checkups. Why would you say that hmm If you can stay awake all night even now when I am not a baby anymore (atleast for you I am) why can’t I get up and do my duty? Who else will ever understand what you have given me if I don’t? It’s my job and my mission to make the ends meet and make sure that the one person who brought me to this world is being treated properly by this world.
Doctors said you aren’t well but you know you are. Because mum wellness isn’t all about health, it’s about how you feel mentally. And you know what, till the day i breathe my last I will make sure you are not let down by me. I am taking care of my brothers and the little baby sister but I need you, dad needs you and we all need you to be here. You know that right?
So come on and smile now because this son of yours is capable of facing the world and will be your pillar of strength now, I can’t come close to the purity you possess but at least I can try to do just .001 % of what you did for me although what you did outweighs everything I will ever do in my entire lifetime.
I know you will be ok, because you have yet to see your kids get married, and their kids get married and so on. And you also know that you will be an amazing grandma and someone who everyone looks upto. So please hear me up and stay. Your son needs you I know you won’t let him down
Your Son,
Wakas Mir
August 3rd, 2008 at 7:38 am
Hmmmm Wakas Allah Bless mum, and Grant her all worlds good health, and may she live a long long long long healthy Life, Ameen and InshAllah
U see reading thru this letter I had to take break 15 times, like I had to stop with every paragraph so that could clear my eyes and control my tears, ofcourse i didnt succeed thou hmmmm… This letter Not only touched my heart but soul… Could sense love and respect thru every word hmmm.. Allah bless u and mum..
Mum is a precious precious precious gift from Allah, and no doubt nobody can every pay back what she does for us, we can sacrfice ourselves for her, we can spend all our Life taking care of her, even then it wont be enuf… Infact that would just be the beginning hmmmm…
I pray that May every mum be as lovely and beautiful as your mum and every son be just as wonderful as YOU Wakas, Allah shower his best blessings on you, mum and all family, InshAllah
Love duas humesha and humesha!!
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Didn’t want to make you weepy leena.. but still your duas mean a lot, bohat thx
Regards, Wakas
August 3rd, 2008 at 12:36 pm
Once a little kid asked God…”"tell me dear GOD why you created mothers …God said because I could not be every where to take care of the little kids in this world and therefore I made mothers”"……..Motherhood is most beautiful event which only women can share and only women have right to be mother and there is no happier moment in mothers life than looking at her baby for the first time”"”"”All that I am, or ever hope to be ,I owe to my angel mother..said .Abraham Lincoln”"”"So let us pay tribute by singing a song in praise of all the mothers….
August 4th, 2008 at 12:11 am
hmmm i have no words as i am choked readin ur post.. I cant be in ur shoes but I am sure the luv and the duas that u do for her humesha will help her juz d way it has helped u with her luv n duas.
Wont say much but I pray that God gives her a lambi zindagi full of good health, happiness and unke pyaare family ka saath..
I personally know how much mum’s saaya is needed harr pal on ur head… woh jahan par hoti hai all dil does is gives duas for her good health juz like our mums do for us..
I pray woh jaldi theek ho n unko achi sehat de 
God Bless u n ur fam humesha
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Dear reader.. meant a lot that you commented.. bless you
Regards, Wakas
August 4th, 2008 at 1:03 am
ameeen ameeen … many many prayers for your mom. Inshah Allah she’ll be all well, up and beaming with joy to see her kids settled in and having grandkids.
Just make sure these words do not remain on the blog only. Let the affections be shown in person. Let her know how important she is to you and your family, though she knows – she’s the mother, but words can do magic. Spoken words.
Mothers are the foundation stone of our roots
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True asma.. very true. thx for commenting and yes i will try my best to be a son she will be proud of..
Regards, Wakas
August 4th, 2008 at 1:35 am
I don’t know what to say…this letter to aunty really touched me so much…had me in tears as I continued to read paragraph after paragraph. Aunty is so blessed to have a son like you in her life. Allah will surely listen to yours and ours prayers. Mother’s are a direct gift from God and I’m sure He’s listening to her prayers as well.
Like Leena said, we can never repay back what our mum’s do for us. The love, the care, the way they take care of our every little needs, it’s the only thing that keeps us going. No matter how much we do for them, it can never be enough. A mother will always support us in everything we do, and will always be our pillar of strength and I pray to God that she always remains so as well.
I pray and hope that Aunty gets all well and is given a chance to see you grow even more and always be with you in every step of the way.
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She definitely will be ok.. inshAllah.. thx for the duas anam
Regards, Wakas
August 4th, 2008 at 5:09 am
Wakas bro you’ve written such a beautiful account of your life with mum… there’s not much one can add, bas ankhen nam hogayi. Allah kare aapki ami jaldi se theek hojaye aur unka saaya hamesha aapke saath rahe, Allah unko lambi khush-hal zindagi bakshe, Ameen.
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shukriya sis .. lots of duas for u too
Regards, Wakas
August 5th, 2008 at 1:00 pm
Very touching post Wakas bahi, i read it 3 times before today but couldnt reply coz of this touching Life post….i always had tears in eyes after reading all this…
I just wanna say “my prayers are for Ur mom, she get well soon & come back to her sweet family” (Ameen)
Coz every mother is a precious gift for every child….& She is also so precious to U & to ur Family…dont worry Wakas bahi every thing will be ok quickly
August 6th, 2008 at 12:58 am
As soon as I read the title, it brought tears to my eyes!
Wakas, what a wonderful account of what your Mom did for you and what she means for you!
Let me tell all our lovely members and other who read this: our parents are our parents, no matter what!
and as far as mom is concerned, it is rightly said that if we put the whole world in one side of a weighing scale, and then put mom in the other one, the one with mom in it will weigh more! I believe everyone has heard of this at some or the other time in their lives!
Each mother in this world has done what she thought was her absolute best, and we know that we cannot do better than our best. Every mother wants to see her children be happy at all times, and how many times have we gone running to our moms, crying, disappointed, because we did not do as well as we wanted, or could not get what we wanted: and what did mom say? don’t worry beta, all will be well! Thats what moms want, for everything to be just the way we want it to be.
When we grow up and become parents, especially those of us who become Moms, we realize how much we troubled our moms as kids when our kids are naughty, and what we must have put our moms thru!
Well, like saanj said, we all hope that we are able to justify the word “mother” .
Little things that our children say, mean a lot to us.
A few days ago my son wanted me to make both, vegetable samosas,(which was for a friend) and beef samosas. Well the next day he called me and said they are great mom. They taste exactly the way they did all those years ago! So you see, Wakas, your mother too, knows what you mean, even though you might not say it in so many words.
Like I said in the beginning,, this brought tears to my eyes, why?
Because Allah recalled my mother when I was only two, and my single regret has been that I dont have a mother. Yes, I had a step mother, she was a great lady, and may Allah Almighty give them the choicest place in His Kingdom, I always did, and will feel the loss of a mother, because there are lots of things that I wanted to do with Mom, that I could not! If only a Genie really existed!
So to all of you who have a mother and dont care, or have put your parents in a nursing home, or old age home, please do whatever you can while you still have the opportunity, and show your mothers and parents that you DO care,, because, if once they are gone, they will never come back!
Wakas, I often wonder: what would ever happen if Moms would say “I dont have time, or I am busy, dont bother me, when the children were too small to look after themselves? The world would simultaneously cry out What a bad mother! How can she say that? and all the rest that I dont want to write here,,
Well, what do you think we should say to those children who dont value their mothers?
To each and every one out there, I will say, please learn to value of your mother, if you want to know, ask those of us who did not even get the opportunity to know a mother!
And for your Mother Wakas, I will pray that she will become well soon, for all of the reasons you mentioned and more! Believe me, she knows about each and every thing you mentioned, because that is how moms are, they notice everything, but say nothing, and keep praying for us each and every day of our lives. I know, because I am a Mom too!
A Mom is a Mom is a Mom!
Nothing and nobody can ever replace her!
Cannot be acquired no matter how much you wish to pay for a mother!
Duniya mein sab ki ammi ko Allah abaad, abaad,shaad, rakhey, Ameen, sum.ameen!
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That was amazing billo ji..bohat hi acha likha view. Really liked the part where you said ke if mother doesn’t help the kid when the child needs it they are called bad parents and so on… very nice n touchy
Regards, Wakas
August 6th, 2008 at 7:51 am
This is just….i have no words bro…i think saanj sis said it, ur letter to ur mum has touched my soul too…and u know what, being in a similar situation i know exactly how u feel…. Just want u to know that ever since iv heard abt it, All my prayers have been with ur mum bro, may Allah give them sehat aur lambi zindagi -ameen. Allah ta`la hamesha un ka saaya aap k sar pe kaim rakhe – ameen. And remember ur sis is right here, we all are, jus call out our name and we will all be there4u…always. God Bless u n ur family.
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Means a lot sis .. thx for your kind words and duas
Regards, Wakas
August 24th, 2008 at 11:58 am
ohh wakas! I started missing my ammi again.. I cant wait to see her coming this weekend from India to sharjah. Parents are really a blessing from the Almighty Allah. Lucky you have both mom and dad… and I miss my Dad as he passed away 14 years ago in Ramadan. May Allah bless him jannah (Aaameen).
Beautiful post, bro. I can feel the home sickness in ur post as well, isnt it???
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Ameen to all your duas bro.. yes the fact now is that I am with my mum now but feel jitna karein utna kam hei.. to bass dua hi kijiye ga she needs lots of them. And may Allah bless your dad jannat ameen sum ameen..
August 25th, 2008 at 6:15 am
InshaAllah ammi will get tip top soon:) Unhein kuch ho hi nahi sakta as “Ammi’s are lovely and lovable”. Our duaas always with u.
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InshAllah
September 15th, 2008 at 2:31 am
You have told her all this also, or did you just write it here to express how you feel?
Boys can be emotional with their mothers directly too. What ever time we have with the parents is a bonus in life – use it wisely – memorise her habits so they become a part of your life – and eventually you will have to be the adult in the family – so best to be pre prepared – ask her now only to guide you how to be more responsible in life – only mums can do that. You are lucky she is still there in yor life!
May 12th, 2009 at 2:00 pm
So extremly touchy hmmmm – sometimes we humans have no clue what to say, right now that’s how I feel
God bless you with the SaaYa of mom till infinity Wakas (Ameen-sum-Ameen). God – He’s the most mercyful N the greatest, what is it that he can’t do, right? he’s gona make sure mom gets well very soon N she’s gona be right there with you all making loads of beautiful memories ahead -innsha-AllAh. (heartly N bunch of prayers for amMi all the time)
God bless.